Life is great.

So me and my wonderful hubby have been together now for 5 years. We have done a lot together. Now its time for some more responsibility. We are looking in to renting a house here in Utah. We don't want to bye anything here. So the search is on. We are doing well financially. So I'm confident we will find some thing nice.  I really don't want to move Ashlynn to a different school. But It looks like we will have to. But we have 2 mouths before we have to be out of here. So crossing are fingers to find some thing we like. We really don't want to spend more then 850 a mouth. We also would like a 3 bed room with a back yard. We want a 3 bed room just in case we have a baby some day. But if we cant find some thing in are rang we will just say for a few more mouths and see what happens. Wish us luck on are new adventurer.......................

Hopeful but pissed off.....

Ok so today I am 18 days late on my period. Ashlynn is 8 years old now. I really want to have a baby before I am 30 years old. But no my stupid body wont let me. The doctor did blood work for me today. Its not my thyroid. So he wont me to wait 3 week and come back. If I dont have my period he wants to do a ultrasound and see whats going on in my tummy. Im really mad at the moment cause Some girls can cock there leg and pop out a baby. But I cant...This really sucks. Im not happy.. But Like I always do Ill make it threw...I may stomp and yell on my way...   

Still a little hopeful....

Me and my honey have been together now for almost 5 years. I really lucked out with him. He is loving caring and passionate. Both with me and my little girl. We have been trying on and off now for 2 years to get pregnant. But for some reason my body is not doing it part. It kills me so much. Mostly causes I no he will be a great dad. At this point I am 10 day later on my period but all the tests say no I'm not pregnant. The doctor says I may be but not far enough along to have the HCG to show up. So I'm still hopeful. But if I am not this time the doctor says there are things we can do if I dont get pregnant in the next few mouths. Im not a very religious person. But those of you that are keep me in mind. Thanks.

Being a mom....

I love every day of being a mom. I work very hard at making sure ashlynn knows that I love her and Im here for her no matter what. I make sure she eats drinks water baths dose homework and dose her best at home and school. What the hell is wrong with other people that have like 5 or 6 kids and they just let them run wild out side with no shoes and some times no clothes. I wish I could have more then one kid so I could show you how its frekin done. I wish I had a good contact with the Child protective services. I was raised better then that. I learned respect and common sense. Even when I lived with my dad and he was on his Drug kick he always made sure I had shoes on my feet.
      Dedicated to my stupid Neighbors.

One day.

So today was a great day... I love my dear friend Teresa and here little family Brad Adee and Armani. I love to hang out with them. Me and Dustin have really had a hard time with getting pregnant for the last 5 years. We still have not been blessed with a baby. So spending time with her and the little ones really help me deal with my baby hunger. I hoping one day we can have a little Dustin running around. One day... Till then I will love on all my friends blessings.

I have the best hubby.

 My hubby is so good to me. He is always there for me and never makes me sad. He is so good to me and to my daughter.